I will admit I have fallen off. Let me just say this: I'm not one to publicly point out my flaws. I know I'm not flawless. I do not even begin to act like I'm perfect, but I am very comfortable with me. I love to highlight my positives and deal with my flaws privately....and by privately that means my close friends are who I discuss my shortcomings with. With that being said, today I'll act like YOU, Public Blog, are my dear friend. I need to be able to look back on this later to know things have changed for the better.
Back to line one: I've fallen off, girrrrrrrlllllll, have I ever! For the life of me I couldn't figure out how it happened, but really I knew. I was so focused on one area of my life that I thought everything else would stay in place. Don't ever believe that lie. I won't ever again. I let myself get fat. (Girl, u ain't fat) Yes, I am, Craig. U ain't got to lie. As much as I try to say it snuck up, 30 lbs doesn't sneak up on nobody'sass hind parts. It knocks on the door and makes a loud entrance. I just allowed the guest to become welcome and make a home on my hips, thighs, and bum.....and chin. I got something for it, though.
I've always liked to look nice, but I've gotten careless in that area. Yea, I spend majority of my time in my uniform especially with the deployments. No excuse. It was never an excuse before. I just got a little too comfortable in comfort. So I'm working on my wardrobe again. It's been fun. I'm trying to revamp my look in subtle ways.
Socially, I've been a loner. I'm not going to say I want a huge amount of friends, but I do need to show myself friendly more. I want to start being more active and social again. I feel like I have been missing out.
I've gotten very comfortable in my career, but it's time to start making steps to move forward. I reached my goal of attaining my degree. I haven't set anymore goals. I do not like to live my life without goals, so it's on to the next goal. New rank and another degree! Cheers to the future.
Let's not even talk about my spiritual life. Ten steps back. Why? Because other things were more important. That's a no go. I need to get it together.
Where the heck did my hobbies go? I really don't know, but I refuse to be without a hobby any longer.
As selfish as this sounds, it's going to have to be about me right now. This isn't a speech about how I'm putting myself first or anything like that. It's more about adding myself to the equation. I have lost a lot of myself and neglected myself in a lot of things. I'm no longer willing to do that.
Back to line one: I've fallen off, girrrrrrrlllllll, have I ever! For the life of me I couldn't figure out how it happened, but really I knew. I was so focused on one area of my life that I thought everything else would stay in place. Don't ever believe that lie. I won't ever again. I let myself get fat. (Girl, u ain't fat) Yes, I am, Craig. U ain't got to lie. As much as I try to say it snuck up, 30 lbs doesn't sneak up on nobody's
I've always liked to look nice, but I've gotten careless in that area. Yea, I spend majority of my time in my uniform especially with the deployments. No excuse. It was never an excuse before. I just got a little too comfortable in comfort. So I'm working on my wardrobe again. It's been fun. I'm trying to revamp my look in subtle ways.
Socially, I've been a loner. I'm not going to say I want a huge amount of friends, but I do need to show myself friendly more. I want to start being more active and social again. I feel like I have been missing out.
I've gotten very comfortable in my career, but it's time to start making steps to move forward. I reached my goal of attaining my degree. I haven't set anymore goals. I do not like to live my life without goals, so it's on to the next goal. New rank and another degree! Cheers to the future.
Let's not even talk about my spiritual life. Ten steps back. Why? Because other things were more important. That's a no go. I need to get it together.
Where the heck did my hobbies go? I really don't know, but I refuse to be without a hobby any longer.
As selfish as this sounds, it's going to have to be about me right now. This isn't a speech about how I'm putting myself first or anything like that. It's more about adding myself to the equation. I have lost a lot of myself and neglected myself in a lot of things. I'm no longer willing to do that.
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