What Happened to Walmart?

Ok, so today I planned to stay in the stores until I felt like relaxing. For whatever reason I was super restless today. My shopping trip actually lasted a lot longer than I thought it would. I hit up Kohl's, Ross, Target, Old Navy, and the mall. I had a good time, and I bought some necessaries along with a few wants. The one thing on to-do list that I saved for last was grocery shopping. I had planned on driving back to my city to do the grocery shopping, but I changed my mind at the last minute. I figured that even though I was like 45 minutes away from the house, my groceries would be just fine if I just went to the Walmart in my current location.

I don't like Walmart to begin with, but I figured it was just one particular Walmart in my city that I didn't like. No. As soon as I walked into the "last minute decision" Walmart, I knew I made a horrible decision. This quite possibly was the worst Walmart I've been to in a minute. I should've just drove allllll the way to the pretty Wally World in my town. I chose to be hard-headed, I guess. The whole time I was in this particular Walmart, I just started making mental notes to myself. The shelves were too bare in some spots. It was dirty and disorganized. The bathroom was nasty. I just shook my head.

It's a shame, but you can definitely tell what part of the city you're in if you step inside the Walmart in that area. That in itself is ridiculous. Why is it that the lower income areas deserve to have kicked around fruit and a dirty, disorganized, bare Walmart? When did Walmart become so....so...I don't know. I remember when I used to love Walmart. I really despise the store now. The sad thing is Walmart is not going to change. Those of us who hate Walmart continue to go there because they meet the need. Walmart is a one-stop shop. That is what will keep customers going there no matter whether the store improves or not. With that being said, I don't think Walmart's management cares what we think at all. If they feel like having a pretty store, they will. If they think the people in the area aren't worth pretty fruit, then they'll continue to get kicked around fruit.

I'm just mad at myself for continuing to support the store. I'll probably be in somebody's Walmart tomorrow. Shame.

I May Have Popped a Button

<p>I just broke down and bought a new uniform. First step is admitting. I am now admitting that I've gained weight, and my tight bleep uniform isn't nearly as sexy as I act like it is. So I suffered the consequences of weight gain by letting it punch me in my pocket, and then I left Clothing Sales.

I am actually proud of myself,  though. I have been eating better and lighter this week. I'm more motivated to workout. I'm on my way....or at least that's what I'm telling myself.

So here's the plan: I'll wear the uniform labeled "FG" until I lose approximately 12 pounds. Then, I will decide if my old uniform fits to my standards. So there. I've just set an attainable goal. ;-)

Time For a Change

I will admit I have fallen off. Let me just say this: I'm not one to publicly point out my flaws. I know I'm not flawless. I do not even begin to act like I'm perfect,  but I am very comfortable with me. I love to highlight my positives and deal with my flaws privately....and by privately that means my close friends are who I discuss my shortcomings with. With that being said, today I'll act like YOU, Public Blog, are my dear friend. I need to be able to look back on this later to know things have changed for the better.

Back to line one: I've fallen off, girrrrrrrlllllll, have I ever! For the life of me I couldn't figure out how it happened, but really I knew. I was so focused on one area of my life that I thought everything else would stay in place. Don't ever believe that lie. I won't ever again. I let myself get fat. (Girl, u ain't fat) Yes, I am, Craig. U ain't got to lie. As much as I try to say it snuck up, 30 lbs doesn't sneak up on nobody's ass hind parts. It knocks on the door and makes a loud entrance. I just allowed the guest to become welcome and make a home on my hips, thighs, and bum.....and chin. I got something for it, though.

I've always liked to look nice, but I've gotten careless in that area. Yea, I spend majority of my time in my uniform especially with the deployments. No excuse. It was never an excuse before. I just got a little too comfortable in comfort. So I'm working on my wardrobe again. It's been fun. I'm trying to revamp my look in subtle ways.

Socially, I've been a loner. I'm not going to say I want a huge amount of friends, but I do need to show myself friendly more. I want to start being more active and social again. I feel like I have been missing out.

I've gotten very comfortable in my career, but it's time to start making steps to move forward. I reached my goal of attaining my degree. I haven't set anymore goals. I do not like to live my life without goals, so it's on to the next goal. New rank and another degree! Cheers to the future.

Let's not even talk about my spiritual life. Ten steps back. Why? Because other things were more important. That's a no go. I need to get it together.

Where the heck did my hobbies go? I really don't know, but I refuse to be without a hobby any longer.

As selfish as this sounds, it's going to have to be about me right now. This isn't a speech about how I'm putting myself first or anything like that. It's more about adding myself to the equation. I have lost a lot of myself and neglected myself in a lot of things. I'm no longer willing to do that.